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anthropomorphic personifications of aspects of the universe [Aug. 23rd, 2005|06:38 pm]
Zeni
[mood |relaxedrelaxed]
[music |Freaky Friday Soundtrack]

We all grow old, I know, but do we get meaner as we grow? Or do we just get emotionless? Have you ever noticed that people get meaner as you get to know them? I mean I rarly see people get nicer. Do we have a gene for meaness that just grows and grows, cause if we do I wanna get rid of it. I also noticed that some people get more shallow. I mean why talk about people or call people names it just gives them the right to do the same back to you. But of course I can't say anything cause I've probably done it to, but if anyone remembers me from like kindergarten i was like super nice and very naive, but it's good to be naive about somethings isn't it?
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size matters.... [Aug. 15th, 2005|09:03 pm]
Zeni
[mood |naughtynaughty]
[music |Because I can- Katy Rose]

So I'm walking back from the fire drill and talking to Bryan(Brian? I don't know how he spells his name) Well anyway I keep pointing out the perverted stuff!!! Then A couple minutes ago I was talking to Ashleykins on her new sn with the generated buddy icon from aim and all I sawe was size matters and burst out laughing!!! What the hell is wrong with me!!!???? I'm not suppose to think like this!!! I'm not a guy!!!! I don't have a penis!!!! So what is up with my thinking today!!!!!!!!!
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everyone elses blog rant for today [Aug. 8th, 2005|09:04 pm]
Zeni
[mood |sicksick]
[music |Maria Mckee- High Dive]

Ok I guess today is the day everyone can talk bout their first day and rant about it, but mine felt like every other day except now I can rant about overcrowded buses. I don't have anything to really rant about except that I have like no one to talk to in any of my classes because if I have someone I'm friends with their across the room!!!!

Finally I have people who can tell me how sick I look though, unfortunatley they told me I looked high and my eyes still haven't gone back to normal!!! I had my 6th nosebleed since saturday too. I swear there is nothing wrong with me, well except my voice, but thats just funny.

Orthodontist appointment went fine and I didn't cough during it which was really good. Found out that my surgery will happen in march or summer. I'm kinda hoping for march because I really want to get it over with, but that means I'll probably be out of school for two weeks and I'd really miss everybody, but they said it may only be a week.

So now all I have left is to sit around the rest of the day and cough.
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Bewitched [Aug. 7th, 2005|09:03 pm]
Zeni
[mood |weirdweird]
[music |Jessica Andrews-Who I Am]

It felt so weird seeing it again I don't know if it was the fact that the chair next to me didn't even have a seat or something else, but I kept expecting something to be there. It felt so empty this time and it wasn't as funny as last time either I don't know why......
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The best rocking script [Nov. 29th, 2004|07:30 pm]
Zeni
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\pard\sb100\sa100 Foamy: all right, what do you want to see? The \lquote Passion of the Jesus\rquote , or \lquote Dawn of the Zombies\rquote ?\par
Germaine: Well, from what I hear, the passion of the Jesus was like, a whole religious experience. It\rquote s supposed to be a really deep, but emotional film. But then, \lquote Dawn of the zombies\rquote , has Zombies. And Zombies are always cool.\par
Foamy: Let us weigh the options, shall we? Jesus is sub-titled, and you can\rquote t understand the language. But \lquote Zombies\rquote , has babbling dead people, which you can\rquote t understand. Hmm. Both movies have a lot of blood, both movies have angry mobs, both movies, have people, who come back form the dead. So, basically, it\rquote s the same thing.\par
Germaine: Well, mmm, it\rquote s not \i really\i0 the same thing.\par
Foamy: Yes, it is. Only \lquote Dawn of the Zombies\rquote has more people coming back from the dead, whereas \lquote Jesus\rquote only has one. Jesus. And \lquote Zombies\rquote probably has more explosions.\par
Germaine: But \lquote Jesus\rquote has miracles. \par
Foamy: Oh, yeah? What kind of miracles?\par
Germaine: The whooole.. water to wine thing, and probably some other stuff\'85\par
Foamy: Hmm. Water to wine, or exploding Zombies. Wine, exploding zombies. Hmmm. \par
Germaine: (A-tcha) Just pick one!\par
Foamy: How about we watch Zombies, but sneak in to see Jesus.\par
Germaine: Uuunhh\'85 just in case there IS a heaven and a hell, I\rquote m not sneaking in to see a film about Jesus. \par
Foamy: Hneh. You think Jesus would send you to hell? Over sneaking into a religious film?\par
Germaine: Who knows? Ever read the Bible? He\rquote s usually forgiving, but can be pretty vengeful if you piss him off. Last thing I need to do is burn in hell for eternity because I snuck into a Jesus film.\par
Foamy: Hneeh, I guess you\rquote re right. Unless you know for sure, it\rquote s best to stay on the safe side?\par
(Germaine Burps)\par
Foamy: So \lquote Zombies\rquote it is! Give me a ticket for the Zombies!\par
Germaine: Forgive him, father, for he knows not what tickets he has purchased. \par
Foamy: Yeah, I do! See! \lquote Dawn of the Zombies\rquote .\par
(End)\par
Foamy: (Singing) Zombie, zombie, zombie, I want to see the Zombies, eat brains, eat brains, I\rquote m going to see the Zombies, eat brains, eat brains, bum, bum, bum, bum, \'85.\par
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Why me [Jan. 4th, 2004|01:55 pm]
Zeni
[mood |gloomygloomy]

okay to clue you guys in the guy i kissed was robert. well we had a wonderful timebut the he decided to move back to florida that only lasted until thanksgiving. but any way her i am thinking i'm in lurv with him get back to u in a bitor a day or 2
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Hell [Jul. 22nd, 2003|09:38 pm]
Zeni
The Weather in Hell
Isn't the weather nice today?
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sorry tori [Jul. 3rd, 2003|02:09 pm]
Zeni
sorry but i can't tell u it's a secret between me and him u'll learn when we're 26 until then u can't know
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secrets heehee [Jul. 2nd, 2003|03:24 pm]
Zeni
surprise
You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p


What kind of kiss are you?
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someone will be suprised but its a secret sorry tori and bianca!!! ^_-hee hee!!!wish i could tell u guys but promises must be kept!!! I'm so happy. He is so sweet!!!
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Kittie Lyrics [Feb. 23rd, 2003|02:47 pm]
Zeni
KITTIE LYRICS

"Oracle"

A glance over your own shoulder
A vow that today will stand out Caged in a routine
Intent unknown
The element Of surprise
Impact undetermined but vast
Mark me...
Brandishing a cold loaded smile Simplicity,
subtlety, discordance fate and allegory
Everything has it's purpose and you will suffer for what you’ve done


"In Winter"

You fell to the ground like rain
On deaf ears your cries met hands And knees were blistered
Shouting from the tallest tree
You declared wrong
But they never listen
There’s safety in numbers
This cold-hearted world!
The Coldest Winter...
You don’t see me like I know you
Hiding behind glass
So sickened by grief
You can’t let them win
They’ll have you
Playing life makes death so good
This cold-hearted world!
The Coldest Winter...
You don’t know, And you never will!


"Severed"

Look at you now
Eyes wide open
Truth begged to be told
I walk around in circles to revisit Where I’ve always been
You spoke of where your heart was
I thought
I knew you well
Ties that bind you have been severed
Look at you now
Eyes wide open
Truth begged to be told
I want to make you feel this
Trusting arms let me fall once again
I stood close to an enemy and Closer to a friend
Ties that bind you have been severed.
Look at you now
Eyes wide open
Truth begged to be told


"Run Like Hell"

Run run run run run run run run Run, YEAH!
You better make your face up in Your favourite disguise
With your button down lips and your Roller blind eyes
With your empty smile
And your hungry heart
Feel the bile rising from your guilty past
With your nerves in tatters when the cockleshell shatters
And the hammers batter down the door
You'd better run!
Run run run run run run run run
Run, YEAH!
You better run all day and run all night
And keep your dirty feelings deep inside
And if you're taking your Girlfriend out tonight
You'd better park the car well out of sight
Cause if they catch you in the back seat trying to pick her locks
They're gonna send you back to mother in a cardboard box
You better run!
Run run run run run run run run
Run, YEAH!


"Pain"

I feel your pain
Almost lost it all
You are all the same
The wounded bleed to death
Tarnish my name
You deserve nothing at all...
You knew that life was a game...
You deserve nothing at all...
You must endure your own PAIN!
Life in the dark without a light
Hollow empty
Let’s get it right
You deserve nothing at all...
You knew that life was a game...
You deserve nothing at all...
Red dress serpent...
Just stop it..
Just stop it...
Red dress serpent and you’ll stay here!
You deserve nothing at all...
You knew that life was a game...
You deserve nothing at all...
YOU MUST ENDURE YOUR OWN PAIN!


"Wolves"

It crawls along the floor subdued
Nothing amounts to
Nothing realizing
Nothing afraid of
Nothing act upon
Nothing stopping at
Nothing consider
Nothing consequence
Nothing
Comes Back
Like Wolves!
Hydra dead times six cowering
Nothing amounts to
Nothing realizing
Nothing afraid of
Nothing act upon
Nothing stopping at
Nothing consider
Nothing consequence
Nothing
Comes Back
Like Wolves!
If I could, I would have begged you


"What I Always Wanted"

Opened up it's revealed!
Savour this
Dont get lost in a lie!
Hit or miss
Beside, myself, push on
What's to come must be proved
Focus bliss
Charcoal stares
One foot at a time
Smear those lines
I thought I found
What I always wanted
Bear with me
I thought I found
What I always wanted
Bear with me
Certainty
Is not at hand
I can't keep my eyes open
Chose not to listen
I thought I found
What I always wanted
Bear with me
I thought I found
What I always wanted
I got what I wanted
I got just what I always wanted
I got what I wanted
I got just what I always wanted


"No Name"

Indeed I will condescend
Exhausting every trace to give you,
What you asked for
Everything you demanded you bleed right from me
At last, I will be free
And the phoenix rises
Invasion of my last hope
For once just know your place
We are only human
Everything you demanded you bleed right from me
So weak you cannot see
Corruption at its finest


"Spit"

COWARD!!
spit i think i'll spit
For all those girls, who speak contradiction
The guy who crept through the shadows everyday
to clutch his own conclusion
Watch all the blood, as it drips from your veins you coward Godspeed,
may your death come quickly

i think i'll take this hate and , SPIT, SPIT, SPIT

Now as it's passed onto the next one I feel a bloodrush come right over me
You know you will never be right in the eyes of the ones who know
You trusted the devil and she will betray you

Low

Why do i get shit all the time from you men
You are swine
You think dick is the answer
But its not [x2]



"Charlotte"

So, Im Nothing.
You Took Something From Me, Now You've Dissapeared.
You're Right Where I Want You.
You Said You Wanted It, Alright.
No! Its Not Alright [3x]
No...
Now I'm Something, And Your Head Is In My Closet.
Dead Forever, They'll Never Search It...
Out Of Sight No! Its Not Alright [3x]
No...
I'm Cold, So Cold, Ohh, Ohh [2x]
If i Find It [2x]
NO! NO WAY! [4x]


"Suck"

Free From The Sun. In The Dark I Am None.
Though My Heart Sinks Like That One, I Am Told.
Respect Nothing! Not This Love.
Falling Further in This Motherfucking Hole!
Believe Me, Believe Me, Believe Me When I Say you suck.
You Disgust Me When You bring Me Down.
But though My Heart Says I Will Die Without YOU!
Respect Nothing! Not This Love.
Falling Further In This Motherfucking Hole!
Believe Me When I Say You Suck. oh fuck!
Believe Me, Believe Me, Please Believe Me,
When I Say, When I Say, When I Say, When I... Say
FUCK YOU, YOU THINK ITS ALL FUNNY [3x]
FUCK YOU. Like I Said
FUCK YOU, YOU THINK ITS ALL FUNNY [3x]
FUCK YOU!


"Do You Think I'm A Whore"

The Knife Is On The Table.
I Put Myself To Sleep.
All I Know Is All I Know.
Remember What You Sow Is What Reap!
Why Can't I Fucking Believe You?
This is Your words For Me.
A Little Sheltered Girl Is What I'll Always Be.
So Loving And Considerate.
Too Scared Of What I'll Be.
I Look Into The Mirror, The Whore Is All I See.
Like You. Like Me.
Diminished, Self important, i'll never see.
Like You. Like Me.
I Never Want To Be Like Me.
Do You Think I'm A Whore?
I'm A Whore [4x]
Why can't I Fucking Believe You?
This is Your Words For Me.
A Little Sheltered Girl Is What I'll Always Fucking Be.
So Loving And Considerate.
Too Scared Of What I'll Be.
I Look Into The Mirror, The Whore Is All I See.
Like You. Like Me.
I'll Never Cheat. I'm stubborn you see.
Like you. Want Me. Know Me. For Eternity.
I'm A Whore [8x]
Haha. Haha. I'm A...Whore.


"Brackish"

She is not scared to die..
The best things in life drive her to cry.
Crucify then learn..
(take so much away from inside you, makes no sence,
you know he can't guide you, he's your fucking shoulder to lean on, be strong!)
Sit and watch me burn..
She's led to believe, that it be ok,
look at your face, scarred in dismay,
but times have changed, and so have you..
I think I'd rather crucify then learn
(take so much away from inside you, makes no sence,
you know he can't guide you, he's your fucking shulder to lean on, be strong!)
Sit and watch me burn..
I'd like to take you down, and show you
deep inside, my life my inner workin
so smell and lack of inner pride,
to touch upon the surface, is not for
what it seems, I take away
my problems, but only in my dreams.
(take so much away from inside you, makes no sence,
you know he can't guide you, he's your fucking shoulder to lean on, be strong!)
Crucify the learn..
(take so much away from inside you, makes no sence,
you know he can't guide you, he's your fucking shoulder to lean on, be strong!)
Crucify then learn..
Sit and watch me burn..


"Raven"

Not Feeling, Not Nothing.
Good Intentions But Jealousy Takes Over All.
Excuses, Abuses.
This Time I. Know Its Not Over so Why
Take All My Pride And I Shove It Back Down Inside.
This Time harassment's gone to far.
GET AWAY FROM ME! STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME! [4x]
He Wanted More. Wanted a Silenced Whore.
You Were My Life. Kill Me Now And Burn My Soul.
GET AWAY FROM ME! STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME! [4x]
What Is It Me? You Can't Go Out At Night.
Answer Me. Tell Me About Your Others, I've Started To Like That
Answer Me. What About All Those Times
You Looked Me In The Eyes And Said You Lied.
You Know Its Over, Its Over.
What do you see in Me? I Can't Go Out At Night.
Answer Me. Tell Me About Your
Others,would You Like That. Answer Me. What About All Those Times
You Looked Me In The Eyes And Said You Lied.
You Know Its Over, Its Over. What do you see in me? I Can't
Go Out At Night. Answer Me.
Tell Me About Your Other Stories Like that. Answer Me.
What About All Those Times You Looked Me
In The Eyes And Said You Lied.
You Know Its Over, Its Over. I'm through...
GET AWAY FROM ME! STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME! [4x]
You, Sold Your Soul To Me!


"Get Off"

YYou. Take me.. Down. But You're Too...
Strong... I Don't.. Wanna Try.
YOU CAN EAT A DICK!
Dog... Is You. Rude, Vulgar, Obsessive, Not True.
Once In Your Life You woudnt be so sure.
YOU CAN EAT A DICK!
HUMILIATION I'M SUFFOCATING! [5x]
HUMILIATION. What The Fuck!?
Our Father, Who Art In Heaven.
Hallowed Be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom Come, I Will Be Done.
On Earth As It Is In Heaven.
give us this day.


"Paperdoll"

I Look At her In That Paper Dress.
I Wonder Why She Won't Burn.
She's Just A Paper Doll,
Thats All, Just A Paper Doll.
I Dress Her Up She Knocks Me down [2x]
They Try Her On For Size, she Fits Nice.
One Size Fits All [2x]
Now Her Soul Is Dead, Now Her Bodies Raw,
You Can Numb Her Pain
Watch The Blood Run Down Her Face.
But Dont Take Notice.
Watch The Blood Run Down Her Arms.
Please Don't Take Notice.
I Know You Have Her Soul.
(and) I See It In Your Eyes.
She Knows You Have Her Soul.
(and) She Sees It In Your Eyes.
Now Her Soul Is Dead, Now Her Bodies Raw,
WASH AWAY HER PAIN
She Wants You To Eat Her Pain.
She Wants You To Eat Her Remains [2x]


"Mouthful Of Poison"

Blood spilled
Heart-felt
Head filled
Play dead...
Consider yourself now, my friend Enemy number one
You are bound and gagged, sacred circle broken trust
Now the plague has been cast in your town, acid tongue venom word
Why bother to lie?
Leave the lamp behind.
Your mouth full of (lead and lies)
Don’t walk in to fire
You might find that you'll get burned
What a find dirty face
Guilt at last, is this a lesson that’s learned?
Can you hear your own blood in your veins, calling out your demise?
Silence a word to the wise...
Your mouth full of (lead and lies)
I can’t hear you scream
Drowning so it seems your mouth is full of poison...



"Jonny"

What does he tell me this time?
We're just whores on a fucking assembly line.
Believe me I was there.
Take what I want and get the fuck out of here.lets raise the wall,
somebody,to raise the wall. Suck me.
Jonnys been a very bad boy [X3]
Jonnys been a very bad boy....
This door is so high.
My life is oblivious to you and the sun hurts my eyes,
but remember you were not going to raise the wall. stop me ,
to raise the wall. (ooh) and you look at me, see through me,
I am nothing to you, you look at me, see through me,
I am nothing to you, what does it want to be?
you know you love me. you want to ruin me, I take this end.
Destroy this in me but if you want someone...
one will come down fighting for you!



"Safe"

In the darkness
Troubled waters
Lies a flicker
Of homes fire
Come to your senses
Wager a risk
I won’t let go
Waiting for dreams
It’s wonderful
Reality
I watch as
This golden bird flies free
In this ash-vault
A rose garden
These walls will never
See me just to
Save me
Save me



"Pink Lemonade"

Trusted you
With my life
Shattered dreams
Broken glass
I hope there is a closure
Down your path
For I have yet to find
The means to forgive
So what if this was all I had?
Is it over?
Washing away
And forget to see
Go choose your way
Leaving everything
You walked away from this
Did it make it easier on you?
So now what?
Life must go on still haunted
It’s so hard to face the day
I hope it is good for you
I tried, oh how I tried, but it’s broken
Let me go, I could have died

"Trippin'"

WOAH!
See What You Say To Me And I Will Tell You.
See What You Say To Me I Said, "I Told You So".
You Came Into This Life, You Gave Me All This Pride.
You Also Passified.
You trip and i dont THINK SO.
oh If You Consider It I Will
Take All Your Shit.
See What You Say To Me.
It Doesn't Mean A Lot.
You Came Into This Life.
You Know My True Side.
You Also Passified.
You trip and i dont THINK SO.
WONT YOU TELL ME WHAT ITS ALL ABOUT?
MOTHERFUCKER WONT YOU TELL ME YOU CARE!
WONT YOU TELL ME WHAT ITS ALL ABOUT?
AS YOU WATCH ME...BURN!!!!!!


"Choke"

You're Here To Lie.
Your Good Looks, Your Fake Smile.
I Loved You But It Took Me A Long While
To Realize You Don't Even Care.
All The Feelings, You Had None.
There's Only One Word To Describe You,
And Thats A Hypocrite.
I Looked Over You, I Looked Over Me.
Look At You And Smile, You Fucking Pedophile.
I Looked Over You, I Looked Over Me.
Look At You And Smile, PEDOPHILE!
SEDUCTION! TIED DOWN!
DECAPITATION!
LISTEN! OHHHHH!
YOU HYPOCRITE!
THIS IS THE END! SUCK IT!
My Eyes Are Never Dry.
Its All Done.
It Wasnt Real And All But It Was Fun.
Was I Not Good Enough For You King? [3x]
I Guess Not.
I Looked Over You, I Looked Over Me.
Look At You And Smile, You Fucking Pedophile.
I Looked Over You, I Looked Over Me.
Look At You And Smile, PEDOPHILE!
SEDUCTION! TIED DOWN!
DECAPITATION!
LISTEN! OHHHHH!
YOU HYPOCRITE THIS IS THE END! SUCK IT!
YOUR NOT THE KINGYOU NEVER WILL FIND.
DON'T YOU SEE IT'S ALL IN MY MIND! (x3)
YOUR NOT THE KING YOU NEVER WILL FIND...
I HOPE YOU CHOKE!
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